Uncontrolled thinking and actions are all caused by disturbed energy
In the new age self-help book era, everybody is talking about self love and controlling your thoughts.
That's what many yoga practices are based to
As if If we can control our thinking, we can suddenly feel free and peaceful
And that is not the truth
Thoughts are not the problem
Source of the thoughts are the problem
But of course when we think too much and when we numb ourselves there is no way to realize this truth
But if we manage to calm down, sit down and do not change anything
We can feel the real reason of our uneasiness, unhappiness and depression
First step is to be aware of our thoughts
Second step is not to do anything about it (drinking, talking, taking drugs, going out, sleeping around etc..)
then we might be ready to let it all go
If you can sit like that by yourself, you can actually feel the energy that directs our thoughts and actions
It is really disturbing and painful at first
It is our wound that is open and tender and it hurts so much when it is hit
When somebody says something that can hit this wound, it hurts so much
And we feel this pain as an energy.
If we never stop and look at it, we never feel this energy, its process is really fast
It creates anxiety and fear and it creates all these thoughts
Then our brain starts to make very intelligent plans to get rid of this pain
We might think that money, that school, that career, that boy, that food, that drug ,that shoes, that party would end this pain
It does end the pain but it certainly soothes the pain for sometime until the affect of that solution fades away
If shopping soothes us, we would need more and more everyday and night
But that way we do not end the pain, it goes to deeper, and later it would be so hard to clean it
If we can sit and observe and feel this energy on our body
Something beautiful happens
We realize that it is just an energy, it is nothing
We realize that all our fearful and anxious thoughts come from this energy
We also realize that we are stronger than this energy
All we need is to feel it, watch it, surrender to it. Let it be there..
Then watch it leaving you
Oh it is amazing feeling, because you healed one of your wounds
You are lighter and happier
There is no other way
No magical wound
No magical yoga pose
No magical plant or substance
that can do this
The key is always in you
And the only way to feel happier
is to sit with yourself